Good morning,
I'm in class, sleepy and sighing on how horribly hungry I am right now.
The conversations we had last night still ringing in my head.
I feel touched on how peculiar you are towards me, telling me all those simple, sweet little words.
Disbelieved. Trying not to believe too much. That usually happen to someone who was once a non-believer trying to breakdown one by one all those vague information.
Sick and tired of being let down all the time previously by man who once I loved, but that love fades as time goes by knowing the ugly truth that they will never come back. Trying to be cautious and aware in every words, every gesture, every movement and even every thoughts that came to mind.
Pen off, class finishes at 10.
Friday 22 February 2013
Monday 11 February 2013
Dear Love
"I think I'll miss you forever,
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky... "
It is just has been, how many days? Let's see. 3 to 4 days and I am already missing you like crazy.
Had to wait until the end of the month until I could see you again.
Keep on whispering, to remind myself to be patient. I can be. Just, after all these years and I finally got you back and be on track and you gotta be away again even for few weeks :') Ahh.
Dear Lord, I thank you for making everything happen to me. You kicked some feelings sense in me and I finally be able to feel back the gifts I threw away back then for how many years which I have been swimming in emptiness. I feel very grateful for that.
Dear Love,
How's over there? I hope you're doing well there. Must have been busy. I feel so happy you surprise texted me the other day. Didn't see that coming. Really.
Dear Love,
If only you are able to read this since, I don't want anyone to know that this blog exists for me to pour everything from my heart out like a diary. I don't want any discovery happen and people know this blog belongs to me. Since I hate writing. I just, type everything.
Honestly I really hate emotional attachment but then why do I feel happy after the attachment happens. Dear Lord, I hope no more heartbreaking moments for me. As I grew older, I just....... tired of getting to know new people, more people and leads me off better to be on my own.
12 years ain't short. If I ever need to face any challenge and problem, with Your blessings and guidance, I will be able to make it through.
Amen.
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky... "
It is just has been, how many days? Let's see. 3 to 4 days and I am already missing you like crazy.
Had to wait until the end of the month until I could see you again.
Keep on whispering, to remind myself to be patient. I can be. Just, after all these years and I finally got you back and be on track and you gotta be away again even for few weeks :') Ahh.
Dear Lord, I thank you for making everything happen to me. You kicked some feelings sense in me and I finally be able to feel back the gifts I threw away back then for how many years which I have been swimming in emptiness. I feel very grateful for that.
Dear Love,
How's over there? I hope you're doing well there. Must have been busy. I feel so happy you surprise texted me the other day. Didn't see that coming. Really.
Dear Love,
If only you are able to read this since, I don't want anyone to know that this blog exists for me to pour everything from my heart out like a diary. I don't want any discovery happen and people know this blog belongs to me. Since I hate writing. I just, type everything.
Honestly I really hate emotional attachment but then why do I feel happy after the attachment happens. Dear Lord, I hope no more heartbreaking moments for me. As I grew older, I just....... tired of getting to know new people, more people and leads me off better to be on my own.
12 years ain't short. If I ever need to face any challenge and problem, with Your blessings and guidance, I will be able to make it through.
Amen.
Friday 1 February 2013
To find that Lost Love
Back then during high schools well, I used to be a person who is full of inspiration, aspiring and yeah....juicy brain type of person. I was so in love with drawings. I draw every single day. In text books, papers, exam papers, everywhere as long as I have my only preferred tool of trade - a 2B pencil. Always.
To think about it, I can't even remember when is the last time I draw anything. Seriously. I don't know. I don't know whether I have talents or not in fine arts. I wish I knew.
Been figuring out why and how did I stopped drawing. I feel sad, it is really heartbreaking. I was a person who is very anticipated to draw. Anything! But now, I feel nothing, empty. No more extra capability of mine. No more.
I wonder where are all my old drawings gone to. In digital or the original piece.
Dot.
To think about it, I can't even remember when is the last time I draw anything. Seriously. I don't know. I don't know whether I have talents or not in fine arts. I wish I knew.
Been figuring out why and how did I stopped drawing. I feel sad, it is really heartbreaking. I was a person who is very anticipated to draw. Anything! But now, I feel nothing, empty. No more extra capability of mine. No more.
I wonder where are all my old drawings gone to. In digital or the original piece.
Dot.
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